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The end of the traineeship? + Decision Day

The end of the fourth week (official 3rd week) has come – and here I am, sitting and trying to recap everything (again). It was a great time, had a lot of fun, learned so many things and enjoyed every single day. The traineeship now has come to its official end and whether it will be prolonged or not is not totally clear yet, but it looks like it will be prolonged for a week or two, at least that was the thought/plan. Sooner (on Monday) or later (in two weeks at the latest) the day will come, though, on which a huge decision will be made – will I become a self-employed tattoo artist who will be allowed/able to work inside the studio I’ve been a trainee at or not? grimacing

Truth be told, I’m hopeful, but well, you can never know, so I’m a “bit” nervous (even though I should not think about what could happen or whatever, because I’m a bit sick/ill at the moment [damn you, stomach!] and should rest and relax in order to be fighting fit again on Monday).

I was told to write down why I want to become a tattoo artist and what I’m willing to do for it – and what my strengths and weaknesses are – which I already did, at least at a glance/in a nutshell and I’ll write it down again properly tomorrow.

Well, guys, what else could I say… except for; wish me luck and all the best and keep your fingers crossed, because I feel like I was born to do this/that this is my biggest dream which is about to become true – hopefully.

End of the 3rd week

Well, the first 3 weeks are over. Officially the first 2 weeks, for I started on September 3rd in my free time, but the traineeship officially started on September 10th. There’s just too much stuff to recap scream yum

My first tattoo is nearly healed completely and it definitely needs some touch up work, but that will follow some day in the near future; adding some white highlights and red blood splats, also refining the outlines and shadows a bit:

White Guy 1st Tat


I’ve drawn some tattoo drafts/flashes for customers already, such as the following two:

Before I started my traineeship it was something unusual, something very special and kinda rare thing, when I drew a tattoo draft for someone which would get inked later on. Now it has started to become a bit more usual, but I’m still thrilled and happy every time, when I draw something and my Mentor inks it right away, hehe.

I still need to get better at everything, though.

Unfortunately the traineeship will last only for one more week, but maybe it’ll be extended for one or two weeks, and after this… we’ll see, hehe. Don’t want to disclose anything too early smile

First Tattoo ever & a whole lot of stuff learned – 1st week recap

Oh well. I don’t know where to start, lol. I learned so damn much during the past & first week, I don’t even… flushed


Today. I tattooed the first whole tattoo ever. On my own leg, the left one, above my ankle on the inside of the leg. If you know what I mean. I inked at home, though my mentor said that I’d rather ink my first motive inside his studio, so he could watch the stuff I do and tell me if I made a mistake, so I wouldn’t get into the habit of making those possible mistakes (again), but, tbh, I preferred to ink my first tattoo ever at home, without someone watching me “work”, because this used to make me nervous as shit (back in school and stuff), and when I’m getting this kind of nervous, I probably make mistakes/screw up lines e.g. a fortiori. I just wanted to ink the first one alone, the touch up could be done later inside the studio, like new tattoos I wanna add on my left leg (where I still can reach my skin with my right hand properly) someday later.

The tattoo itself… could’ve come out better, lol. But imho it could become a whole lot worse than the way it did. I mean, it was the first one (I practiced on pig skin several times before, but it is not the same at all imho). And we all know that no one is born a master, right? Even if I can draw stuff more or less good, it doesn’t mean I’m used to a vibrating, heavy (in comparison) tattoo machine right away, right… I have to learn a lot more, have to get used to my machine, to everything, and practice, practice, practice. The first step was made today – and that’s worth a lot blush

sickdelusion_firsttattooI got only a crappy camera, so the pic is blurry as crap and the actual tattoo looks better than on the picture, imo, lol no_mouth

This is my dream job, and I want it more than ever before. two_hearts

The First Day

Well… hi grimacing

Starting a blog about becoming a tattooist may turn out to be a risky thing, because some may not approve of something like this or even feel kinda backstabbed, but I just feel the need of logging my experiences and everything and don’t see a reason to be afraid of doing such a thing. Why not share my experiences and thoughts on the internet with those, who are interested in it, while nearly everybody is blogging/vlogging about whatever else? blush

So yeah, here I am, sitting in front of my computer and thinking of what to write about after my first day as a trainee in a tattoo shop. First day? Wait. Not really the first… Because I’ve been a trainee whatsoever 5 yrs ago in the same shop, just in my spare time. Means I went there every day in my spare time for 4 weeks in total and learned as much as I could. Then life resumed being bitchy as always and for 5 years I didn’t do anything (on this subject) – until today.

So yeah, first day of being a trainee (again). Feels awesome smile I’m as happy as a permanently confused and weird individual/freak could be, haha. I learned a lot, which I didn’t learn yet 5 years ago or even after this point by reading and watching stuff on the internet. My brain is buzzing and there’s so much stuff left I need to learn still, but I feel great. And content – and confident. Because first I was afraid as hell. To be honest. Because the guys in the shop I’m a trainee now at are just awesome, kind, understanding and supporting. Thanks a for that. I even secretly thank God for this chance, haha, but don’t tell anyone stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes The chance those guys gave and give to me, the chance to live my dream, the chance to work in my dream job. How many people got such luck? I know what this means and so I’m just grateful and happy.

I still need to get better at drawing stuff (especially in a way of being usable as a tattoo draft/flash), need to get used to actually inking people and everything else, but I’m looking forward to it, despite of still being a bit insecure and whatnot, heh.

There will be hard times, there will be exhaustion, there will be challenges of which I may think I can’t meet, but I’ll hang in there, baby. And write about it here yum